I would have called this post commitment instead of reasonability but honestly I have not been as committed as I should have been to be to the fire station. When you volunteer to be a fire fighter, it’s not like any other volunteer services. Which you can go when you have the time, you feel like it, or you want to. There are mandatory dates
Every Sunday: 7:50am – 3:00pm
Every other Saturday: 3:00pm – 6pm
Monday to Saturday: At least 10 hours of your choosing
Honestly I have not committed to all of these dates. This isn’t because I just said, “I don’t want to” but because of time constraints having OAE (Outdoor Adventure Education). I understand that its still my duty to answer to the order given, But adding in homework, studying for test, and parents especially parents its hard.
My parents love, me helping the community, but do not agree on me leaving the house for so many hours to do it. They especially hate the fact that I leave them on family Sundays when I’m usually the one that buys and makes the breakfast for the family.
This is something that I have to work on commitment and responsibility. Today I took a big leap forward for myself, in manning up to my responsibilities because when it comes to something I do wrong and I know I’m going to get yelled at. I try to delay that as much as I can, hoping they would forget. That’s not how it should be. I have to be a man, face them head first and try to find out if there’s a solution before it’s too late. So today knowing I would get phone call from them, I didn’t want to answer. Then I thought about responsibility and answered. I was ordered to be down there by 10pm.
Tonight is going to be a hard night for me. I know I have disobeyed my station, by not following the hours they told me to go and I know I will get either yelled at or seriously talked to. Since the fire station is military like, I’m sure it’s going to be yelled at.
I have to man up and see what happens but knowing me. I would usually ask my parents “can I go”, hoping that they will not let me, go so that I wont get yelled at. That’s not what a mature man would do thought. So today when my parents come, I’m going to man up to these responsibilities and say
“ma, pa perdón a me, ya se que es bien tarde pero fui ordenado por los bomberos para ir a la estación a esta hora, para hablar con mis compañeros sobre el progreso que hemos hecho, es obligatorio y tengo que ir”
As you can see I will be leaving out the part that I’m probably in trouble, so that they have no reason for not letting me go. I will surely tell them what happened after I get back, so that they are able to understand why I had to go so badly.
The only fear I have is that I am kicked out of the station. This is a possibility, which I was informed of when entering the station. This would really depress me, since I found a real connection. I now that this up coming month I will be able to devote my time to them, since I do not have any OAE trips. So I know sit here and hope that the night goes well. Although I already feel the blood rush through my body and a tension in my chest and I know for a fact that these symptoms will grow much more later tonight.
I will hopefully have time to write a small blog tomorrow on what happened for you guys.